Fear of Presentation or Speech

What need to be covered on paper. Just make something up like how I have struggled with college because I have fears of speech or presentation, but, I would like to be first family member to graduate so I am doing the best I can. My motto is " any points is better the none." so under is what teacher is asking under example. 200 words that's it.
Here is an example of someone's:The ghost of self-doubt has made roadblocks in my life numerous times. One of my biggest goals in 2012 was that I wanted to become the first person in my family to attend college. With that goal came a lot of self-doubt and I constantly struggled with the fear of the unknown that came with being unaware of what college was going to be like. Coming from a family that preached to me from a young age that hard labor work was going to get me further in life than receiving a degree from college, I decided to put my college education to a complete stop and ignore it for many years.
I couldn’t overcome many obstacles in my way because I simply did not believe that the quality of my work was going to be enough. I applied what other people believed into my life and wasn’t thinking about what was going to better my future. Because I decided to listen to those people, I chose to work at jobs that left me feeling half empty and not satisfied. My self-doubt even worked against me at work because I didn’t believe I could get any further than where I was.
What changed between the 2012 Mary to the person today that is attending college? I decided it was best to overcome my fears and surround myself around people who had the proper resources to educate me on what it was going to take for me to become a college student. The best way for me to get away from the shadows of my self-doubt, I needed to ask for help and guidance. I am proud that I decided to take a chance and if I knew then what I know now, I could have exorcized this ghost long ago. It still pops up from time to time, but I try my hardest to work through it because I know what if I work hard and ask for help, I can overcome my doubts.
Teacher is asking: In order to take part in Discussion One, you need to have read the inspirational lecture found in Week One's lessons. The following comments and questions have been designed to get you thinking about what you read. Please answer them as best you can, and try to craft your answer into a comprehensive little "essay" rather than just sounding like answers in some kind of a workbook:
--Everyone deals with ghosts of self-doubt. Describe an occasion when a ghost kept you from achieving a goal. Please be as specific as possible. --Using a few of the techniques outlined in this lecture, how could you have responded to exorcize this ghost?
--What is the difference between reading for classes in school and reading for pleasure? How does reading a book for pleasure make you a better writer? Please be specific.
--How does television retard the learning process over time? What about composing email on the Internet? How can this be detrimental to one’ s ability to write healthy prose?
Some info he wanted read:
How to Overcome Writer’s Block
Part I: A Beginner’s Guide to Exorcising Ghosts
This lecture will help you deal with a fear of writing. Even if you don’t feel any sense of foreboding when you sit down at the keyboard, you will benefit from reading this little treatise. I should probably mention that sometimes doubts surface in other ways, such as a lack of variety in your prose style, or general awkwardness. Anything that chokes your ability to craft smooth, well-transitioned prose is suspect. The good news here is that there are only two basic explanations you need to consider:
Number One: You have not been exposed to enough good writing.
Number Two: You are suffering, if not from writer’s block, then a slight case of constipation (a word that comes from the Latin, constipatio, which means “crowding together”). Even when you manage to type words on the page, they seem contrived, overly-simplistic, abstract, and they follow an unnatural cadence that calls attention to itself as a jumbled collection of words rather than a free-flowing interchange of ideas.
The first problem has an obvious remedy, which will be addressed in Week Five’s inspirational lecture. As for the second, you’ve come to the right place. The advice that follows will definitely help to set things right. In any case, what do you think of the following statement?
Fact: Any failure that you suffered in the past was merely the outward manifestation of doubts & fears.
If this statement is true, then it means you had to envision yourself failing at something before it actually happened. Of course, your little bout of “mental malpractice” against yourself might not have occurred immediately prior to the unfortunate event in question. You might have been preparing for years ahead of time!
But why, you ask? Why would I want to fail? Nobody consciously sets out to suck at what they do. That’s where psychology comes in, and it says that the fear of failure is often a self-fulfilling prophecy. We fail because we think it is easier than succeeding.
Here’s an example of what I mean. Have you ever tried to keep your expectations low for a movie before you went to the theater? Why on earth would you do such a thing? Everyone knows the answer to this little head-game: “ If I go to the theater with high expectations, the movie could end up being a disappointment.”
This type of logic might work insofar as Hollywood entertainment is concerned, but it does not help in most other aspects of life. If you tend to think this way, now is your chance to stop. Refrain from harboring artificially low expectations when you sit down to write. Instead, go the other way: Know that you must and will succeed.
For a select few in the class, keeping this strategy in mind will be enough. Their writing will improve noticeably. But for the rest of us, it’s going to take a little more than that. In a manner of speaking, we will need to have a comprehensive battle plan. I suggest taking advice from Ulysses S. Grant, one of the greatest generals in the history of America. He said, when asked how he planned to wage a particularly difficult campaign during the Civil War, “I propose to fight it out on this line, if it takes all summer.”
Whenever a suggestion pops into your head that you are about to fail, quickly replace it with an equal and opposite positive statement that reinforces your ability to succeed.
For instance, if you find yourself thinking, “I’m just no good at writing,” attack the suggestion as if it is a lie that your arch enemy is whispering in your ear. Dismiss it as unreal, nothing more than the ghost of a suggestion, and know in your heart that you can and will write beautifully.
For those of you who find you have especially stubborn resistance to writing a scholarship essay, I suggest you speak directly to the “ ghost" of failure. It might be hard to do at first, but the rewards will far outweigh the effort.
Don’t let it get the upper hand, or it will begin to pull you back into the darkness of doubt and fear. Addressing a ghost of self-doubt or failure will help eliminate any self-sabotage that is standing between you and the path to writing successfully.
But . . . what if my ghost of failure keeps tormenting me?
This screen is so frickin’ blank. There’n s nothing worse than a gray screen with no words on it because I’ve been backing up the curser and erasing the same rotten sentence over and over again. Man, I suck at this. Writing is just a load of crap. I hate it. Okay, better type something. But not that same, awful sentence. Something new. What was the question again? Oh, yeah. Jeez, this is so lame. I wonder what’s on TV. Or I could check my email. . . .
Sound familiar? You have just witnessed a classic “haunting.” The ghost has been around for along time, victimizing this poor guy, and it’s learned all of the right buttons to press to keep him from getting things done. The writer will be lucky to get through a slap-shod introduction before exhaustion sets in, and he stumbles off to bed, feeling a big lump in his stomach because he knows the paper will end up getting written at the last minute and it won’t be very good.
In this case, the person thinking these destructive thoughts might turn the tables on procrastination, self-doubt, and fear of failure by actually personifying those negative thoughts, and thereby making a clean break from them through a type of externalization. It may seem a bit schizophrenic, but for many people, the process can yield positive results. Mentally address the voice that is calling you a “loser” as if it were indeed a real being (which, of course, it isn’t). Don’t accept what it is saying. Stand up to it, and tell it who’s boss. “ No, I am going to get this done. I have plenty of time to get through the pre-writing stages before I go to bed.”
This technique of “externalization” can be an especially vigorous way to redirect thought into new, positive channels. Never speak anything aloud, however, as this can reinforce the sense of its reality in your experience.
Each time a derisive thought pops into your head, silently exclaim, “Go away, you rotten ghost! You have no power over me! I live in the present, and you cannot come here! The future is only another present and the past is over. Once I have learned from my mistakes, you cannot haunt me any longer! I am free of your presence!”
And if the so-called ghost persists, keep at it, “Be gone now, you liar! I can do this, and I will start right now without your shadow hanging over me! The light of success is illuminating my consciousness even now, and banishing you to the state of nothingness from whence you have come!”
The History of Failure
Epidemiology is a branch of medicine that chronicles the causes, spreading, and containment of disease within a given population. Psychologists and psychiatrists could learn a great deal from their colleagues working in the “hard sciences,” those professionals who are devoted to such historical models, particularly where the phenomenon of failure is concerned. Most difficult cases did not start today, yesterday or even last year. One must learn to doubt oneself, to question one’s abilities, to fear the end result of such short-comings, and thereby pave the road to failure.
Infection, in most cases, probably occurred many years prior to outright failure, in childhood. Like an invisible plague, such negative impulses move from one person to the next, surging up through decades, centuries—even millennia. Often, they are limited to a specific discipline or endeavor, but not always. For the unfortunate few, an overriding sense of failure haunts all avenues of life, until the victim feels such a sense of dread that he or she loses the desire to go on living. This might surface in chronic depression, which can and often does register a tangible manifestation in the body through hereditary predispositions within families, or even a physical illness, which can be diagnosed. Thought controls our experience more than most of us realize. Parents can transmit defeatist viruses, teachers can—indeed anyone who has been infected can spread this form of limitation.